This time around, I'm inspired (again) by wanting to get in shape. well, I'm already in a shape... kinda lumpy. I just want to be in a *prettier* shape. one that doesn't make me feel like ms. potato head...
I've been feeling the urge to work out and eat better for a while now. but I haven't DONE anything about it except feel guilty for knowing what I SHOULD be doing...and then doing the complete opposite. sigh. but enough is enough. i am tired of not recognizing myself in the mirror. i am tired of being afraid to wear a bathing suit, even if just in the jacuzzi in the dark. i am tired of being stressed out. i am tired of having no energy to do anything. in short... i am tired of being tired.
My mom just got diagnosed with "water behind the knees" and a pretty bad case of arthritis... for a while now, she's barely been able to WALK. I know that I already have knee issues... why am I making things worse for myself in the future?
So, I make small changes. baby steps. the problem is... I'm really REALLY lazy. I need someone to kick myself in the ass a lot at times before I make any sort of movement towards change. Sucks, but true. It's not a cop-out, it's who I am and who I've always been. I know I need to change this, and I'm working on it, but any kind of change doesn't happen overnight, especially since I've spent 30+ years forming these patterns in the first place.
for the last few days, I've made the time to shop for groceries and actually COOK my meals. And so far, so good. I've made pretty healthy choices, made enough to last for lunch the next day, and saved a LOT of money in the process. let's compare, shall we?
typical weekday of OLD way:
breakfast: scone = $2
lunch: sandwich and soup in cafe downstairs: $9
dinner: mcdonalds (or other fast-food): $9
total each day: $20
NEW way:
groceries to last 2+ full days: $25
wow.
here's what I've cooked so far in the last 3 days:
- ground turkey patties with bbq sauce and mushrooms, cottage cheese, steamed zuchini & mushrooms, and 1/2 an avocado.
- chicken sausage & tortellini in olive oil and green beans with feta cheese
- teriyaki chicken with pineapples, mushrooms & snap peas on a bed of jasmine rice, with edamame and a side salad
now, let's get PHYSICAL!!! I haven't gone to the gym in a loooooong time. I know, I suck. And I DOUBLY suck because I'm still paying for a gym membership. YIKES! I bit the bullet today and upgraded my membership. Um, why?!! Because it will give me access to the HUGE new gym that is a block away from my home. because, let's face it... I'm lazy and it's all about convenience. If I have time to talk myself out of going to the gym on my way OVER there, I simply won't go. And that sucks. Because I KNOW how much I actually enjoy it when I'm there. It's just getting my lazy butt there in the first place. So, here we go. And, for extra motivation, I'm gonna stop off on my way home to pick up a cute new outfit to wear while working out. Cuz let's face it... my pants look like I'm waiting for a flood, and my outfits in general scream "soccer mom trying to lose baby weight." And, um, I don't HAVE any kids.
And, one more piece of motivation... WRITING IT DOWN. I broke out my FitBook today, and will be creating my plan of attack, and then charting my progress as I go. It plans for a 12-week program, which is perfect! Starting on Monday (April 11), that means that my 12 weeks will be up on July 4th for this round! NICE! And just in time for the swimsuit season, too... Now, I'm not expecting to look totally skinny and svelte here... I just wanna look and feel better than I do NOW. And do something that might actually STICK.
So, others might frown on my goals if they heard them... but I'm trying to keep things realistic here. And I know that I can always step things up as I go along... that once my body starts feeling better, I'll want to put junk into it less and less. But, in any case, here are my goals:
- walk the dog 4+ times a week. (yeah, I KNOW I should be doing it daily. But I don't. I suck.)
- go to the gym 2+ times a week. (again, I KNOW it should be more than this to REALLY get in shape. But I'm trying to be realistic here and not burn out before I start.)
- do a group class at the gym at least 2x a month. They've got some fun ones. This should be easy.
- cook more meals at home.
- eat less junk food, especially from the drive-thru. Limit my McDonald's consumption to once a week.
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